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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 3, 2007 18:25:54 GMT -5
Sully looked at her, his face etched with grief. "I told you it wasn't a pretty story," he said. "I've lived with it for almost five years now. It never gets any easier. An' it never stops hurting. I see her in my dreams, I talk to her sometimes, like she's still here. How can I rest when I know the monster that did this is probably still out there?" He brushed at his eyes. "But what would a lass like you know about any o' that, right? Werewolves are coarse, vulgar creatures, who hide in shadows and wait for the moment the moon will turn full and reveal their true selves."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 3, 2007 18:31:47 GMT -5
Rochelle swallowed whenever he said that werewolves were vulgar creatures. It actually hurt a little. She never really hurt anybody, she let the others do that, not all of them were like he thought, but she couldn't let him know her secret. "I try to avoid going out on full moons," said Rochelle. "That's one of the last things I want to run into."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 3, 2007 18:37:15 GMT -5
He gave her a weak smile. "That's a smart lass," he said. "I wish Jessie had done the same. She knew better... I don't know why she cut through the woods, except that she'd always done it before." He let out an anguished cry. "I'd take her place, if I could. I shoulda died instead of her! It's not fair, I tell you!" He lashed out then, sweeping his empty glass off of the table. The glass shattered on the floor and he stared down at it. "I'm like that glass, you know. Broken in little pieces. Are you sure you still want to be talkin' to me?"
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 3, 2007 20:20:31 GMT -5
Rochelle frowned as Sully began to lash out. "Look, it's not your fault. You can't help what happened. Don't think it is your fault, it was an accident," said Rochelle in a softer tone. "The more you blame yourself for it, the worse it hurts. Don't blame yourself, because like I said it was an accident." She watched as the glass broke on the floor. "Sully. If you don't have anyone to talk to about things, the more you'd end up hurting yourself, and I don't want you to hurt yourself, or blame yourself any longer, so yes, I'm sure I still want to talk to you."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 11:17:05 GMT -5
Sully dropped his head down on the table and began to cry and laugh at the same time. "Do you know how long it's been since I talked to anyone? I mean, really talked, like we're doing right now? I don't even know why I'm tellin' you all this, it's just I can't seem to help myself. I've been alone so long..."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 11:31:18 GMT -5
Rochelle just stared at him as he began to laugh and cry at the same time. "Well, I guess I came here at the right time then," she said. "It's not that great to go a long time with out really talking to someone. To many emotions get bottled up, and things get complicated."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 11:36:48 GMT -5
He looked up at her, not quite sure what to make of her. "You wouldn't want to see me when I let out my emotions," he said. "This... this is nothing. I get so filled with rage, and I take it out on werewolves, mostly. Although I've been known to get into a few regular barfights, too. I don't know why you care, or why you should. I've come so far from the man Jessie loved that I don't recognize myself."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 11:56:31 GMT -5
"Well, I've seen and felt a lot of pain in my life," said Rochelle. "And I don't like it at all. I wish no one would feel pain or anything of that sort, I guess that's why I've made myself to never love anyone. It just leds to pain. I'm not telling you to forget her or anything, because you'll still have her in your heart, but it's better to move on than stay in the past, because if you stay in the past, the more it will bring you down."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 12:42:42 GMT -5
He looked at her sadly. "It's true, love can lead to pain. Or it can lead to happiness. While I had love, I was the happiest man alive. Love can be beautiful and exciting and frightening. But losing it--that can be enough to rip a man to shreds. Sometimes I've wondered whether I would have rather not known Jessie, not loved her, rather than to know what it's like to love her and live without her. It's like if you've never seen color, or tasted chocolate, you would never know what you're missing."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 12:50:54 GMT -5
Rochelle finally finished off her glass. "It's probably better that you did. Just think, maybe you wouldn't have been as happy as you had been. Would you have rather been extremely happy as you where, or miserable in a realtionship that turned for the worst," said Rochelle.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 12:54:58 GMT -5
He smiled weakly. "You're probably right," he said. "At least... at least I was happy once. Some people never get to say that. Still, sometimes I wish I hadn't loved her, just so I wouldn't miss her so much."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 13:02:51 GMT -5
Rochelle smiled slightly back. "True. I'm glad that at least the majority of people have a time of happiness in their life. I was completely happy once, whenever my family was together, but then when my brother was murdered and I was there, I decided to never love again, even though he was my brother. After that, I never stayed in one place to long, because I started to travel the world."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 13:07:40 GMT -5
He looked at her and shook his head. "I'm sorry about your brother. Do you mind tellin' me what happened? Do you know who killed him?"
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 13:27:09 GMT -5
"Well, he was killed in a fight with a hunter. You see, my brother loved a werewolf. My family disliked that idea, because he was human, although, I didn't think she was that bad, even though she was a werewolf. Well, he died trying to protect her in her wolf form, because there was a hunter trying to kill her. She made it out alive, but he didn't," said Rochelle.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 13:34:28 GMT -5
"Oh," Sully said, feeling at a loss for words. Something about her story made him feel as if he'd been punched in the gut. He'd never killed a human before; with the exception of a few Death Eaters during his career as an auror. But still he felt strangely... responsible. "I'm really sorry about that," he finished lamely.
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 13:45:15 GMT -5
"It isn't your fault," said Rochelle. "It's nothing to be sorry about. The hunter had no right. It's his fault." She played with her glass a little. "I haven't held a gruge against the man or anything. I just moved on, because I can't have something like that hold me back. So, I just decided to fix my problem, I wouldn't ever love anyone. Even though, it was just my brother that died."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 15:06:25 GMT -5
Sully nodded slowly. "I wish I could be that way," he said. "I wish I could just accept that bad things happen, and it was an accident and just move on from that. But I can't. I can't rest knowing that the one who killed her might be out there. Maybe... maybe it's wrong, but I want the one who did it to suffer for taking Jessie away from me. But you're right about one thing. I can't love again. The very thought of putting myself through that kind of risk... I cannot bear it. To love and lose again, would surely kill me. And besides, my heart still belongs to Jessie, and it's not mine to share anymore."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 15:26:30 GMT -5
"That's understandable," said Rochelle. "Although, I can tell you, the one who did it probably suffers as it is. From what by brother's girlfriend told me once about the transformation, it's unbearably painful. The bones changing and the skin and everything. She said that sometimes if they concentrate hard enough, they can control themselves, like she did. Then again, she said that others just allow the wolf to take them and do whatever," she said. "And that's what I'm scared of. To love and lose. It would be worse off if I loved another, other than family, and they were murdered, or just left."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Mar 4, 2007 16:47:13 GMT -5
"I never thought of that," Sully said. "Yes, I suppose it might be painful for them... I just assumed they enjoyed it." He frowned and waved over at the bartender for a new drink. "Well, I'm glad to have met you, lass. I haven't talked this much with anyone in years. I don't know what it is, but you make me feel... a little less alone."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Mar 4, 2007 19:48:22 GMT -5
"I'm willing to sit and listen to you, and give you my thoughts, on your thoughts," said Rochelle. "And I myself have not actually sat and just talked to someone like this in a while." Rochelle had to admit, this mission, seemed to become to feel a lot less like a mission, or maybe she wasn't actually looking at the situation to distract him as a task anymore. For once, Rochelle wasn't going to act like she cared or act like anything, other than herself.
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