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Post by Scarlette Meyers on Jul 27, 2009 15:02:08 GMT -5
"I guess we're kind of lucky that Cyrus and Lina went through this first. We can get tips from them, what to expect, what to deal with, all of that." Maybe she shouldn't have mentioned the one bedroom. But they'd already slept together and created a baby... she didn't think sleeping in the same bed was all that far out of the realm of possibility.
She could tell that they were going to have to figure out something better where these two jobs were concerned. "I can't let you be an Auror and not be well rested, Jamie. That's just asking for trouble. You'll need the sleep more than me, and I don't mind it. I'll still be able to rest, it will just be during the day, and if they baby cries, I'll take care of her." The only downside was that, for a while, they would never get to see each other. She would leave for whatever work she had when he came home. It would have to work until they could save up a little money. "What if I only worked part time?"
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Post by Jamie Ferrera on Jul 27, 2009 22:43:40 GMT -5
"It must be genetic," Jamie smiled. "But yes, I'm sure that they wouldn't mind. I'll owl him soon, I promise. I'll tell him as soon as he'll let me set up a meeting point. I don't think this is the kind of thing you'd want to mention in an owl." It was a good opportunity for him to get back in touch with his family as well. As much as they hadn't been able to connect in the past, this was aalmost a crucial time for Jamie to grow closer to everyone. How much more time did the Fererras have left with one another?
"I won't be ill-rested when I'm an actual auror, just while I'm training. I have excellent motivation, so I don't think that I'd slack in the slightest. You need just as much sleep as I do, you'd be up with the baby just as much as I would the other option," Jamie sighed. This was the difficult part. "Maybe I could start auror training early? I doubt it. But maybe a part time job would work, I just don't want to put too much on you."
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Post by Scarlette Meyers on Aug 6, 2009 13:31:17 GMT -5
Scarlette shook her head. "You'll be even more ill rested as an actual Auror. And what if they send you away on missions?" Scarlette shook her head. She was strong, but now that she really sat back and thought about it, would she be strong enough if she really invested in Jamie, more than she already was, and she lost him? Would she be strong enough to raise a child on her own?
"I can handle a job, Jamie. Maybe just for a little while, you can train, and I'll work nights, and that way someone is always home with the baby, and we can save up a little money for... you know. Food and things like that."
They weren't ready for this at all, she realized, but they would make it work. Somehow.
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Post by Jamie Ferrera on Aug 7, 2009 18:54:20 GMT -5
"When I'm an actual auror, I can manage to drop the second job and be able to keep you and the baby happy," Jamie said confidently. "It'll be a bit before we can afford our own house, but I'm sure it can work out. And as soon as the baby's a bit older, I'll support you in anything. I promise. I don't want you to get... overstressed."
Jamie strained a bit for the right word. He wouldn't expect Scarlette to worry about the same things he did, about if she left him. He would be torn, and it would be a thousand times worse than when Roland had passed away. Jamie hadn't thought about the option of himself getting killed, he just assumed she meant that he would be gone for a bit.
"It'll be fine. I'm sure they won't put me on any missions that could jepordize a family, especially one like ours."
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Post by Scarlette Meyers on Sept 6, 2009 10:32:43 GMT -5
But they would have to put him on missions like that. There was a war brewing, and they'd already been attacked in Hogsmeade. Jamie's own brother had been killed by Death Eaters. While Scarlette would support Jamie in whatever he wanted to do... why did he have to want to be an Auror? It was probably the most dangerous job he could choose, outside of taming dragons.
So what happened when the war hit its peak, and their side needed all the help they could get? Family or not, Jamie would be thrown into the battle head first, and Scarlette would be left at home, holding their baby and praying for him to come home every night. What kind of life would that be?
"We'll figure it out, okay, Jamie? And I really don't feel like we're on our own, here. We'll have a support system... your family, mostly. Cyrus and Lina will help us, and maybe even your parents. It won't just be us."
She sighed, running a hand through her long hair as everything seemed suddenly bleaker. "Your parents are going to hate me, aren't they?"
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Post by Jamie Ferrera on Sept 8, 2009 22:08:06 GMT -5
"Yeah, we can figure it out," Jamie tried to push the thoughts away.
Jamie was trying to avoid all thoughts of going on dangerous missions, and getting killed or injured. There was too much on him now to go into details of what would happen if something bad happened to either one of them. Jamie was trying to sort all the things at once, and a piece of paper would have helped emensely.
"Of course, Cyrus and Lina will help us," Jamie tried to leave out his mother and father without sounding like he was. "I'm sure your family won't abandon you entirely."
In truth, Jamie didn't know much about Scarlette's family, besides that her father had died. Jamie didn't want to being up any painful memories, and never asked any questions. Of course, he was curious as to why Scarlette's mother wasn't nessecarily brought up, and he wasn't even sure if she had any siblings.
When she ran her fingers through her hair, Jamie caught her hands and held her head, bringing it to his for a quick kiss on the forehead. "My parents can get over the it. I'm sure that they'll come around. You saw how my mother treated Mara at Christmas. I'll just think of a way to bring it up as nicely as possible."
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Post by Scarlette Meyers on Sept 15, 2009 23:12:58 GMT -5
Scarlette frowned. Yes, she had seen how Cara treated Mara at Christmas dinner. But she had also seen how Cara treated Lina, and that's what Scarlette was scared of. True, it was far more important that their child had the right support and a family that would love it unconditionally... but it didn't stop Scarlette from wishing that she and Jamie could have that, too. Cara hadn't exactly been warm and welcoming to Cyrus, either, and she didn't want to estrange Jamie from his family because of what they'd done together. What they created together.
"My family won't abandon me," she murmured quietly. "I'm just not sure how my mum will react. But it doesn't matter, Jamie. You and I can do this. It would just be nice to have as much support as possible. Resources, you know? And I want the baby to know it's loved."
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Post by Jamie Ferrera on Oct 12, 2009 16:54:06 GMT -5
Of course, Jamie realized as soon as he had mentioned the Christmas event, that the good and bad could go through Scarlette's mind. And due to their predicament, it would most likely be more likely that Cara's treatment of Lina would be more predominate in Scarlette's memory. Jamie sighed internally, reminding himself that it couldn't be about Scarlette and Jamie anymore. There were more important things to worry about.
"We can do this," Jamie repeated, "and you're right. Resources would be useful. Although I'm not concerned in the slightest that the baby won't know its loved. I love it right now." Jamie ducked his head to be eye level with Scarlette's stomach. "Right? You know that."
He looked up at Scarlette and gave her a big smile. "I'm good with anything you want."
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Post by Scarlette Meyers on Dec 15, 2009 23:56:08 GMT -5
Scarlette just watched him in awe, running a shakey hand through her hair. He was handling this so well, and she felt herself fall just a little bit more for him... dare she say, in love with him? Nothing that ran through her mind about their future seemed to matter so much anymore. So what if they didn't last a couple? Scarlette knew now, without a doubt, that Jamie would always remain a big part of her life, she didn't doubt for a second that he would remain a part of their child's life. Everything past that? She could take it as it came.
"I'm really sorry about your brother, Jamie. I wish there was something I could do to help." She hadn't gotten the chance to tell Jamie just how much she ached for his loss, or to be there for him. She hoped he'd give her the oppertunity now. "How are you doing?"
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Post by Jamie Ferrera on Dec 25, 2009 19:29:31 GMT -5
Scarlette had looked at him for a long time before saying anything. Jamie looked right back. It might not have really hit him as hard as it could have yet, but so many bad things had happened already. It was better to try and concentrate on the good at this particular moment in time. Making Scarlette feel comfortable was the most important situation right now. Jamie placed his hand lightly on hers.
At the mention of his brother, Jamie took a deep breathe. "Thank you. You've done a lot already, I've been a bit of a lost cause for a while. I just needed a reality check, a wake- up call." Jamie's voice lowered. "This world is dangerous. I was just so surprised that Roland died before I even got to know him."
Jamie looked up at her sheepishly before muttering very softly, "I'm not very close with my family. I'm not really close with anyone. Now that you're here, and we have this baby, it's like a whole new me. I can't lose you."
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Post by Scarlette Meyers on Jan 5, 2010 19:04:07 GMT -5
Scarlette smiled softly. "I think this pregnancy served as an efficient wake up call," she joked lightly. "If that didn't work for you, I don't think anything will."
She didn't have a problem with Jamie and how close he was too his family. She'd watched him closely during the dinner, and she was bright enough to know that he was a different person around her. She didn't mind. She loved him for who he was and would never have him change. If he didn't want to be close to his family, that was his decision. He was close to her, and that mattered.
"If you wanted to be closer to them... I could be there. You know? If you need support. I want to be there for you... I want you to let me be there."
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Post by Jamie Ferrera on Jan 25, 2010 22:08:05 GMT -5
"If that hadn't worked, you might have well pushed me off a cliff," Jamie continued the joke. "What insensitive jerk would wallow in self pity after that news? But really, Scar, I'm forever grateful. I can't imagine how badly I must have made you feel. And it won't happen again."
Jamie sighed, and gave her a smile while reaching out to take both her hands in his to give them a small squeeze. "I would love for you to help. I'm sure that Cyrus will end up being a lot closer, I think that I'm going to need to talk to him soon. Maybe Lina, Cyrus, you and I can have lunch to really get a grasp on the situation. Although that makes me feel like I'm using him before we're even friends..."
"And I'm sorry, but I don't think my parents and I will be the best of friends anytime soon. It's just the way things will work out. But Amandine would love to spend time with you. She's always so intrigued by my life," Jamie laughed lightly. "I don't know why. Cyrus is funnier and, well, Roland was so much more. More of a lot of things." Jamie paused, thinking briefly about how much Roland had really pulled the family apart. "I'm going to need your help."
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