The Last Person You'd Expect (Christian)

[Diana Ward]

Because she had to. Because she felt alive, even if it was pain that she was feeling, it had been emotion. She had died the day the doctors came and told her that her daughter was dead and that she couldn't have anymore children, at least not without risking her own life. That day she had simply lost everything that mattered to her, but now here he was...and somewhere out there her daughter was alive. She didn't know how he did it, what spell he had, but he was there...and a small part of her, which she refused to recognize, told her that everything was going to be okay now...Christian was back.

It was a very conflicting feeling even for her subconscious, Christian had destroyed her, how could he make her better?

Well this was one way. Her arms wrapped around his neck releasing his hair, he was trying to ask her why and she didn't have an answer for him. She didn't know why, all she knew was she needed this. Her first reaction was to demand it he owed it to her to do what she asked without any questions but the part that feared he might turn her away caused her to gentle her actions and whisper, "Please..."

She needed that feeling again. She needed *feeling* again, she was starved for emotion and the glory of being hurt, being enraptured, being in love. She needed it all.

[christianchristian]

Christian couldn't comprehend how one little word could be filled with so many emotions, he felt along with heard each of them. Sadness, loneliness, yet covered with desire, passion and love. Please... It hit him almost as if it were a spell meant to command his actions, he immediately lifted Diana off the ground moving her to the bed and lying her down. "As you wish...." He knew this was not right, this was what he normally would of done but Diana was different she was...special. Laying down next to her his arms wrapped around her and his lips met hers once more.

[Diana Ward]

She allowed him to spin her world into oblivion. Allowed him? Hell she had begged him and then took the wheel herself when it was too much to bear. It had been so long. So very long, and it really was everything she thought it to be.

Sometimes she'd reflect about her time in bed with Christian. She'd think of that time and how amazing it had been, how the earth seemed to disappear, and how a person could get so wrapped up into another person. Yes, sometimes Diana tortured herself and thought about it, and then she'd laugh and say that she was probably reacting with an overactive memory, highlighting things that were great and forgetting things that weren't.

Not that there was anything that wasn't great about being with Christian...well the actual *being* part, not the him leaving afterward part.

She remembered however when she gave him her virginity, she wondered if it surprised him then how inexperienced she was. She did recall the pain of that moment, but Christian had done everything and anything to make her forget it. So even that she could not recall as a "bad" memory.

Now as he was exploring old well known anatomy and claiming it as his own once more she wondered...or she would wonder when she was more coherent and bells weren't ringing in her ears, if he would be able to tell whether or not she had been with anyone else in between then. Of course it was silly to assume he might, there was no way of telling if she had been "faithful" to him, besides she had already told him that she wasn't, she told him that she had a daughter, he didn't know her daughter's age so obviously he could assume that it was after they had been together.

Not that he'd be thinking about it now, at least she didn't think he'd be thinking about it now, on her part anyway she never thought about anything other than the obvious at the moment. That's how it had always been, he made everything else disappear. Obligation, responsibility, propriety, pain, the fact that she semi-hated him, it was all gone. All gone because he was touching her and she didn't have an inkling to tell him not to.