Adele Graham
 
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 3:02:03 GMT -5
He was right, she realized. It was easier to blame herself, and she had for every one of their deaths. Because she could always think that if she had just done something different, they might still be with her. It was easier to deal with than thinking that they had all just been torn from her for no reason.
"I don't know how to keep doing this."
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 3:10:59 GMT -5
"I don't know either." he admitted softly, " We are somewhat whims to fate's fury, but we have to live Adele...we have to survive and live for every moment that we can."
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 3:16:20 GMT -5
He had asked that she let him in, and in her exhausted, broken state, she was. But who knew how long it would last. When she was functioning again, would she still let him in so easily?
"I don't want to be scared of dying," she admitted. "I... there's so much I want to do, but it's hard to fight when fate always wins."
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 3:20:13 GMT -5
"You don't know your fate Adele. No one knows it, we have to live as if we create our own fate...we have to do the things we want to do as if tomorrow didn't exist." he was talking softly while rocking her, "what do you dream of?" he asked, " What are those things you want to do?"
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 3:28:25 GMT -5
She grew quiet. There was a lot she wanted to do, and many things she wanted to see. She just didn't know what to share with Caleb. There was an entire world outside of these walls, and she wanted to see all of it.
"I don't know," she said, not realize that she was starting to push him away emotionally.
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 3:31:31 GMT -5
"I want to travel." he said recognizing the fact that she was pulling away and hoping to keep her there by sharing himself, " I want to see the world beyond what has been my comfy home. Do you want to see the world?"
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 3:36:55 GMT -5
"Yes," she said, sighing as she spoke the word. "I've barely been anywhere... or seen anything. And that's no way to..." to die. She trailed off, her fingers clenching in his shirt again though it was subconscious.
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 3:39:02 GMT -5
"See the world..." he said with a nod " What else Adele...tell me what else you want to do." he took her hands in his and warmed them. He was just trying to get her to relax, and to talk to him.
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 3:44:16 GMT -5
"I want to fall in love again," she said, unaware now that she was again opening up. She was just thinking out loud. She wanted someone to hold her and kiss her and someone who would miss her if she were gone.
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 3:49:46 GMT -5
Caleb wanted that for himself but it wasn't something he just outright said. Though the barriers between them, teacher and student, had faded that propriety had yet to come back and he was looking at her as just a simple girl. If he hadn't been a teacher, if he was just a regular guy...she wasn't that much younger than him. Oh it was an innocent thought surely, but in those few seconds of thinking he realized that she was uncommonly lovely.
"You're not alone Adele." he said holding her slightly, he knew the feeling of wanting to be loved and wanting to be missed should he die, he felt so alone sometimes, " You're going to fall in love again, and you're going to see the world, and when you die an old woman, you'll have your children, and your children's children, and your children's children's children surrounding you as you pass peacefully from this earth to the next to join those who have gone before you. You'll be loved very specially by a man who deserves you and who loves you to over his heart's capacity and when that happens you'll never question again whether or not you will be missed when it is your time to go."
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 3:57:04 GMT -5
She held her breath when he said all of this to her. She doubted she would make it to be that old, but it would be nice.
"I want to be the one leaves sometimes. Not dies. I just don't want to be the one left behind. So you're right... I do want to be missed."
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 4:01:25 GMT -5
"You will be missed Adele." he promised her. He would miss her himself. He hadn't felt a connection to anyone since his his father passed, Sam and his step father excluding but his feelings for them were different. Not that he had "feelings" for Adele, but there was a connection.
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 4:07:16 GMT -5
She smiled. "You don't mean that. But I appreciate it."
She sighed and pulled away from Caleb. "It's late. I should probably get back to the castle. Though I suppose it would be difficult to get in trouble if I'm with a teacher."
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 4:12:19 GMT -5
"I mean it." he said seriously, He sighed, " No, You won't get into trouble." he told her. He didn't want the moment to end. They had been on to something. Whether it was helping her with her problems, or him solving his own he didn't know, but he liked whatever it was.
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 4:14:56 GMT -5
He had caught her with her wall down, and whether or not he knew it, he had a way in now. She didn't realize it either. Not yet.
She got to her feet and brushed herself off. "We should head up."
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 4:21:37 GMT -5
"Sure..." he said a bit awkwardly and stood himself, she had been warm on his lap and he was just now noticing the chill, in a gentlemanly manner that was really barely a thought to him, he took off his jacket and put it on her shoulders.
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 4:23:11 GMT -5
She looked up at him, resisting the urge to give him the warm cloth back. She could accept his niceness. There was no harm in it. "Thank you," she murmured, wrapping it around herself.
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 4:32:09 GMT -5
He nodded with a smile but couldn't fight the feeling that they were ending this too quickly, that there was more to be said, more to be shared, and then he didn't know what was wrong with him, he wanted to share with her, but she was a student...it was confusing in his own mind. "You're welcome."
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Adele Graham
Seventh Year[M:10]
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Posts: 256
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Post by Adele Graham on Sept 23, 2008 4:34:16 GMT -5
"How was class today?" She asked, not looking at him when she asked it because she was smiling, just a little.
She started to walk back towards the castle.
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Post by Caleb Renneau on Sept 23, 2008 4:39:52 GMT -5
"Not the same." he answered truthfully, "Why did you drop my class Adele?" he asked after a few moments of silence. He wanted to know, and they were being so honest anyways. Perhaps he could even coerce her to take his class again...just perhaps.
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