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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 9:35:33 GMT -5
Rochelle had made it back to the Hog's Head, but she felt to tired to make the trip to the Cemetary, so she went to bed early. The next morning, she got up, and got ready to head to the Cemetary. She didn't see Sully at all, but figured that it was probably best. Finally she made it to her destination and started to search for her brother's grave. After what seemed an hour of looking, she knelt down in front of a tombstone labeled Brendan Parnell.
Rochelle stared at the tombstone for a few seconds. "Hey brother," she said in a whisper. "I'm sorry that I never made it to your funeral, and that I haven't came and visited you. It's just, well, since your accident I've been scared to come back here, but now, I'm not that scared anymore. Plus too, mom and dad disowned me right after you died, so I've been pretty much on my own for awhile now. I stopped counting, so I couldn't tell you how long it's been. I've been traveling the world. It's lovely really, but I haven't been able to stay in one place for too long. Although, now, I can stay here for awhile, but I don't know if I want to anymore. After you had died, I vowed to myself that I would never care about someone again, but I recently broke that vow. Although, the sad thing about that is, he's ran from me twice, and that just proves I'm a mess up at everything. I could have prevented your death, but no, I didn't. I could have done a lot of things, but I didn't," she continued, but started to tear up. "I haven't really gone after the things I want, because I've been scared that I'm going to mess everything up, because of my accident long ago. Brendan, I don't know what to do anymore. Everything is slipping away again. I don't have anybody anymore. No one's really there," she said as she put her face in her hands and started to cry quietly.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 10:00:46 GMT -5
Sully had walked out to the cemetary with intentions to visit Jessie's grave. Instead, he was surprised to see Rochelle kneeling in front of a grave and talking. Curious, he ducked behind a large tree and listened to what she was saying. As he listened to her, he felt horrible, and wanted nothing more to run to her and take her into his arms. He couldn't believe that she thought any of this was her fault. Couldn't she see that the problem was him? He stood there for a long moment, watching her cry and wonderiing whether he should go to her, or if that would just make things worse...
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 10:17:43 GMT -5
Rochelle tilted her head up again. "I don't know if I feel like I belong here anymore. For once, after you died, I felt like I belonged here, like I had a meaning, but now, I don't know anymore." Rochelle reached up and put a hand on the tombstone. "I wish I was more like you. I wish that I knew what to do," she said quietly.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 10:26:26 GMT -5
Sully stood there, feeling horrible. For so long, he'd forgotten that his action didn't always just hurt himself... sometimes they hurt other people, too. He hadn't wanted to hurt Rochelle. He started toward her, stepping on a branch as he walked. It cracked loudly beneath his foot and he stopped in his tracks.
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 10:35:29 GMT -5
Rochelle let her hand slip off the tombstone, and then she heard a branch crack. She got to her feet quickly and looked in the direction of the sound, only to see Sully. Rochelle stared at him for a moment. "How long have you been there," she questioned seriously.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 10:42:48 GMT -5
Sully squeezed his eyes shut and was surprised to notice that a tear slipped from between his eyelids. He opened them again and looked at her. "I.... I heard everything," he said. "From the minute you kneeled down in front of the grave. I... I didn't mean to listen, but..." he sighed. "You shouldn't feel that way. It's not your fault. None of it is your fault. It's mine."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 10:51:26 GMT -5
Rochelle continued to stare at him, and not moving from her spot. "No, it's mine," said Rochelle. "I've been a mess up from the start. It's seemed like everyone's ran away from me, so it is my fault," she countered. "My parents, my so called friends, and now you."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 11:07:33 GMT -5
He moved closer to her. "I didn't run away from you because there was anything wrong with you. I ran away..." he sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "I ran away because of me. Because I was feeling things for you that I haven't felt since... since Jessie died. And it scared me. But it's me, love, not you. I'm the one who's messed up. I was scared... scared of hurting you, of losing you, of letting myself care about you. You've known me long enough to know now that... I'm a mess. But you... you've done nothing wrong. You've got to believe that."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 11:13:44 GMT -5
Rochelle sighed. "Well, maybe in this case, I'm not a mess up. But trust me, I know I'm a mess up. Sooner or later, it will start to show," she said referring to her 'issue'. "But, I guess I have to believe you. I mean you were in a mess whenever I first met you," she said with a small smile.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 11:26:34 GMT -5
He walked over to her the rest of the way and put his arms around her. "I don't think you're a mess up," he said. "I think you're lovely and charming. As for me, I'm... confusing and difficult. Even Jessie said so. I just... I feel like the way I'm starting to feel for you... like I'm betraying her memory. I loved her so much... She was my world. But she's been gone so long, and you're the first person who's made me feel that way again.... it just scared me, you know?"
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 11:43:05 GMT -5
She nodded. "I guess I can say I understand," she said. "You're the first person to make me feel like I've actually belonged somewhere, and have some kind of meaning since my brother died. Although, I know you already heard that earlier. I don't think you're very confusing, just a little difficult."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 11:58:29 GMT -5
Sully wanted to kiss her again, but he held himself back. Instead, he just held her, allowing her to lean her head against his shoulder. "Well, I'm sorry if I hurt you. It wasn't what I meant to do at all. It's been a long time since I've actually cared about what anyone else thought or felt. I've been selfish; just wallowing in my own unhappiness. And I don't know what I feel right now or of this is right... but I care about you. More than I would have thought possible. I wanted to just be friends with you, but then I kissed you... Now I don't know what to do next."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 12:09:22 GMT -5
As she stood there in Sully's arms, she got the feeling back again like she belonged. Rochelle rested her head on his shoulder. "It's okay," she said. "I'm not sure what to do next myself. I was thinking about leaving, but now, I'm not so sure I will."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 12:19:45 GMT -5
"Please don't leave," he said softly. "I don't know what I want to do yet, but I do know that I don't want to lose you. You mean more to me than anyone has since... since Jessie died."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 12:33:27 GMT -5
Rochelle sighed. "I'm not going to leave," she said finally, "I couldn't do that to you. Plus too, right now, I feel like I belong once again."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 18:05:29 GMT -5
Sully sighed. "I... I feel that way, too. Like I've come home again after being lost for a long time. I... I don't know what any of this means yet, and I don't know how to deal with it... I think maybe we should just take things slow and see what happens."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 29, 2007 19:42:57 GMT -5
"Yeah, slow is good," said Rochelle. "I don't want to rush into anything, since basically this whole thing is new for me."
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 29, 2007 20:41:51 GMT -5
Sully leaned in and kissed her softly. "I promise I won't run away this time," he whispered as he pulled away. "Uh... maybe we should go back to town. We could go get a bite to eat..."
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Post by Rochelle Parnell on Apr 30, 2007 7:06:04 GMT -5
"I'm glad you won't run away again. I don't like it when you runaway," she whispered back. "Yeah, maybe we should. I haven't eatten anything since yesterday," said Rochelle taking his hand.
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Post by Matthew "Sully" Sullivan on Apr 30, 2007 8:15:42 GMT -5
"I've been running away from things ever since Jessie died. There wasn't anything worth staying for. But for once, I actually want to stay." He smiled and took her hand. "Well, we can't have you starving yourself. Come on, let's go. I'll take you to that little restaurant in town."
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