And Finally, the Break Down (Jamie then Dillon)

[Amandine Ferrera]

Ama leaned against Dillon as he wrapped his arm around her. "I hope you're right," Ama said, her eyes shut to block the last couple of tears from falling. She really didn't want to cry anymore. "I really hope you are."

They were quiet for a while, Ama was simply taking comfort in Dillon being there for her. "I miss my brother." Ama finally whispered. "I miss Roland."

[Dillon Alex]

Dillon understood why she was so concerned there wasn't really anything to compare to a bond with a brother. So he just pulled her in a little closer to him to let her know she wouldn't be alone. He was quiet waiting for her to say something or move, it was up to her wether they ever moved again. After a few minutes she spoke again and she said the words he had been expecting. She missed Roland. He had assumed as much but wasn't sure if she would say it right out.

"I know you do," he said. It was all he could think to say. "I'm so sorry, really" he said the last in a whisper.

[Amandine Ferrera]

Ama nodded and wiped at her tears. Then she sat up a little and hugged her knees close to her chest. "I wish there was something i could do..." Ama said. "But everythime I even think of Roland..." She sniffed. "It hurts." She put her hand over her chest. "So I stop thinking about him and instead I try and keep busy and I try to take care of everyone else in my family who's grieving..." She shook her head. "I...I wish there was more I could do." she repeated herself.

[Dillon Alex]

Dillon watched her pull inward and listened as she talked. He understood the need to help others but at the same time he knew that sometimes it had to be about you. Dillon took a deep breath "Ama I understand you want to help other people, but you need to worry about yourself right now," he said moving so he could look her in the face. "Maybe you should talk about him and remember him in a good way, isn't that what he would have wanted," he asked on the subject of her brother. "I know it's really sad but if you could look back at Roland in a good way, maybe it will help," he said looking at her with questioning concern as he reached over with his thumb and wiped a rolling tear away.

[Amandine Ferrera]

It sounded like the advice she had tried to give Jamie. Talk about Roland. Talk about how you're feeling. Talk about the good times. For Godric's sake just talk! "There's no bad time when it comes to Roland," she said with a hint of a smile. Her mind went back to the day they learned of his death. She was with her dad and they had cried together and he had said "He Adored you Ama,". She had said she knew that then, but she really did know that now. "I remember this one time..." and she talked, for a long while. Telling Dillon stories of her and her brothers, especially her and Roland, when she was little and even now. Occassionally, a few tears would spill, or she would reach toward her throat and grasp the butterfly necklace Roland had given her. Dillon was right, she was feeling a load better.

[Dillon Alex]

Dillon just sat and listened to her talking about her brother. He laughed when it was funny and was supportive when it was sad. He leaned forward and just listened to everything she was saying. He enjoyed her stories, he liked to just listen to people sometimes. He watched the scale of emotion going up and down on her face but all the time she seemed to be keeping it together quite nicely, he really hoped all this helped her.

[Amandine Ferrera]

Ama had lost track of time, but she knew that she and Dillon had been sitting toether for a long time. She truely felt better after talking about Roland. She smiled and she cried and suddenly, she didn't feel the tightness in her chest that she had felt when talking about her brother. She looked up at Dillon and smiled at him, reaching out and taking his hand. "Thank you, Dillon." She smiled.

[Dillon Alex]

Dillon was sitting there listening when she reached out and took his hand. He smiled at her when she said thanks. "No problem, I know you would do the same for me," he said giving her hand a slight squeeze. He grinned at her "so do you think its time to go find Jamie, I think you could really help him now," he said nodding. "Or do you think he would still be bitter," he asked. Taking from his one experience with Jamie he wasn't the friendliest and he wasn't sure if talking to him now was a good idea or not.

[Amandine Ferrera]

"Jamies stubborn," Ama said. "Most of us Ferrera's are. I don't think now is a good time to talk to him." She frowned slightly. "But i think...you know, eventually, well be okay again." She nodded, sure of it. She didn't think she and Jamie could be angry forever.

Suddenly, Ama began to realize how tired she felt. It had been a long, stressful day, and Ama could feel herself droop a bit in her exhaustion.

[Dillon Alex]

Dillon nodded as she said Jamie was stubborn, this wasn't exactly a stretch of the imagination. Dillon nodded when she said they would be okay, he knew that siblings always worked it out in the end. Amandine stopped talking and Dillon looked out the window for the first time in a while and noticed the sun was setting. How long had they been talking he wondered to himself. He turned to the side and stretched his legs, how long had he been sitting like that? "It's getting late, maybe some rest would do you good," he said knowing that today must have taken a lot out of her. He stood up and brushed himself off, he picked up the charms test he had dropped earlier and then offered his other hand to Amandine to help her up.

[Amandine Ferrera]

Yes, sleep would be good for her. She took Dillon's hand that he offered to her and used his help to stand up. It was getting dark outside, they had been sitting forever, and Ama's legs were tingly, being asleep for so long. She shook her legs to wake them up enough to walk, and then took Dillon's hand again, starting their was back to the Ravenclaw common room.